Sunday, March 1, 2015

Update and Fund-raiser

We know that we have been doing so much fundraising, and honestly, it is incredibly difficult to ask for your help again.

Our biggest challenge is not loving another child or even opening our hearts and home, but is finding the finances to make this happen. The estimated cost for our adoption is $35,000. That's certainly more than we have. We know God is a faithful God, and He is guiding us as we trust in Him to provide. By God's grace we have been able to pay the initial $15,000.
Our paperwork has been sent to Ch*na. It is *estimated* that we will be traveling to bring our son home in May. I wish I could share the picture we have of our son, "Judah". He is beautiful. "Judah" has thalassemia. The type he has causes a life-threatening anemia that requires regular blood transfusions and extensive ongoing medical care. These extensive, lifelong blood transfusions lead to iron-overload which must be treated with chelation therapy to prevent early death from organ failure. Due to "Judah's" health we are expediting his adoption.

Our friends have put together a great fund-raiser for us. We are now selling these awesome t-shirts to help raise the funds needed to bring our son home. Every $25 donation will get you one of these tees.
Click the link below for details. You also have the option to just donate if you do not want a tee. Please pray, share, and donate if you can. Thank you.


Saturday, February 14, 2015

2-in-1 Laptop Giveaway: Help bring "Judah" home

Juley G. won the laptop. Rhenda T. won a $10 Target gift card and Tasha R. also won a $10 Target gift card.

We are heading back to Ch*na for another precious son! Our family is so excited!! You can read about our beautiful boy here

As we work towards bringing "Judah" home, we find ourselves very short on the funds we need to bring him home. Due to "Judah's" medical needs we are working on expediting his adoption process, and we might be heading to Ch*na sooner than later. So, we are graciously asking for your help. 

You can donate for a chance to win!

We are giving away a Toshiba Satellite Radius 2-in-1 with 4GB memory and 500GB hard drive.

We will also be drawing for a 2nd and 3rd place winner! Our two oldest decided that they wanted to help out too. They have donated their gift cards that they received for Christmas to our giveaway. The 2nd and 3rd place winners will each receive a $10 Target gift card!!

100% of the profits will be going towards bringing "Judah" home.

All entries for the drawing need to be in by Sunday, February 22, at 5 pm. We will notify the winner later that night.
Just click on the PayPal donate button on the right. Please specify "donation" on PayPal. You can also pay by credit card on the donate button. For those that rather not pay via the website but want to enter please contact me here.
  • $ 5 for 1 entry
  • $ 10 for 3 entries
  • $ 25 for 10 entries
  • $ 50 for 25 entries
  • $100 for 60 entries
We will be giving an extra 5 entries if you donate and share this post. Please be sure to let me know that you shared so you can get your extra entries!

    Thank you for making a difference for our family! We could not do this without the support of our friends and family!
If you are not able to financially help us at this time, that is OK, we just ask that you keep us, and "Judah" in your prayers.

Friday, February 6, 2015

And He Makes 7: adopting again

Yes, it is true. Our family is growing again!
We have received pre-approval to adopt a beautiful 4 year old boy from China. His advocacy name is "Judah". He has beta thalassemia major just like our daughter Ayla. He is  also blood transfusion dependent. You can learn more about thalassemia here. "Judah's" health, right now, is a big worry for us. That being said, our family is still very excited and we are really looking forward to welcoming him into our family. This is not something we have taken lightly; we have been praying for "Judah" and about adopting him for months. We are not adopting him to "save" him; that is not our job. Choosing to welcome Judah into our family is all about hope, love, family, and God.

I am not going to be sharing as much information this time around for many reasons, but I will be updating on our progress. We will not be sharing identifying pictures of our new son until he is legally ours, but I assure you he is crazy cute and has the most gorgeous eyes.

We hope to have all of our paperwork "logged in" by the end of February. Due to "Judah's" medical needs are trying really hard to get everything done quickly. Our agency and our US government have agreed that "Judah" needs to come home quickly and have agreed to help us expedite the best that they can. At this time we are not sure when we will travel, but we think it will be sometime this summer.

Now the tough part. We need to raise the remaining funds to bring "Judah" home. We have a few fundraisers planned and we will be sharing those soon.

We are so thankful for everyone that supports and loves our family. We cannot do this without all of you.


Tuesday, July 8, 2014

Happy 2nd Family Day: Aliyah

Two years ago I met my daughter for the very first time. She did not like me....
July 2,2012

but simply adored her daddy...
And today... today, I am her forever mama. So bittersweet.
And yes, she still adores her daddy.
Aliyah, you are so strong. So spunky. So smart. So full of life and love. And just beautiful inside and out.
 I will love you forever.
Happy 2nd Family Day!

Wednesday, May 28, 2014

Fun in the Sun







Thursday, May 1, 2014

Because I love her

"What is wrong with the little one? She seems frail."

 I was a little bit surprised by the incredibly bold question, but I  replied, with a smile, "Oh, she has some medical problems,but she is making great progress."

"Really, why would you want a sick one?"

I stood there. Shocked. Hurt. Sad. My head was swirling. I looked down at my sweet girls, trying to figure out what to say.

And again she spoke, "Well at least you knew she was sick before she came home, right? That has to make things easier."

I wanted to speak, but nothing would come out. I was angry at her. I was angry at myself. I needed to say something, but my thoughts were all jumbled up. Trying not to cry, I left, praying my girls had not heard what had just been said.


I have had some time to process that day, and I feel like I need to say something. I need to share what is on my heart.
Knowing that Ayla was sick before we brought her home, did not, and will not ever make it any easier. Ever.

There is a woman on the other side of the world, one that I do not know, but I do know her daughter...our daughter...our Ayla. There are details that I will not share. They are not my details to share. They belong to Ayla. But, I do know this, that incredibly brave woman on the other side of the world did what she thought best so her daughter could live. Because of that, Ayla is my daughter now too. There is nothing easy in knowing any of that. Nothing.

We wanted Ayla, more than anything. Sick or not sick. It did not matter. When we saw her face, we knew we were going to be a part of her story. Bringing Ayla home was something we did because of love. Love is such a powerful thing. It sure changes things.

When I look at Ayla, I do not see a diagnosis {or two or three}. I see my girl. My beautiful girl. I see grit and spunk all rolled into one. I see joy and laughter. And more strength and determination than I could ever wish to have. It is easy to love that girl.  

Loving Ayla does not make my heart hurt less. Or my fears go away. Or my anxiety lessen when we wait for test results. Knowing she is sick can be the worst feeling ever, simply because I love her. I am her mama. Being a mama means that when your child is sick you want to make them better. Being a mama means you worry. It means you are afraid sometimes. It means that you will do what it takes no matter what the cost or how it makes you feel. It means that when your child struggles, you struggle too.

 I want to take all of her heartache away. All of it. I want her to live a long healthy life. I want good things for her, just like I do for all my kids, no matter what they face in life. 

I am Ayla's mama, and because I love her, it does not make knowing any easier.

Sunday, February 2, 2014

Beautiful: An update on Ayla

Since that hot day in August, when Ayla reached out for Joel, she has been a part of our family. She just fit right in.  She has been incredibly happy, joyful and all sorts of amazing.

Ayla is a true delight.

She loves to be loved and loves to give love. She adores her siblings. She talks like crazy. She always says "please" "thank you" and "bless you". She is the first to say "good morning", and greets everyone with a hug. She is sweet, and yet fierce. She has such a quiet gentle strength.
She has come a really long way. She has gained some weight and grown taller. She wears glasses now, when we can keep them on that is. She is healthier and stronger. She has a sparkle in her eyes. We still have some developmental things we are working on but she is walking now. She struggles with muscle weakness, and has some balance issues. That, along with her weight gain and growth, is what we are focusing on now. She has the will and desire to learn and do. She will try and try and try until she just can't anymore. She is determined.

Medically speaking she is doing well right now. She is getting blood transfusions every 21 days, and she seems to be "holding well" there. She is taking a daily medication to remove the extra iron in her body since she is iron overloaded. She is such a trooper and takes her medication without issue. She makes herself right at home at the "clinic" where she gets her transfusions and testing done. She loves to help the nurses. She never complains and very rarely cries. Doctors and nurses, and pokes, and MRIs, and lab work, and weigh-ins, are all a part of her life now. It is incredible to watch her be so strong. It makes me so proud, yet breaks my heart at the same time. She has every reason to be angry at this world, but she is not. She has joy.
God has taught me so much through this beautiful child. I know I have said that before about my other children too, and it is all true. Each one of them has taught me something. But Ayla, she has taught me the most about faith, determination, and acceptance.

Many have said that we are amazing for adopting Ayla. Let me tell you, NOTHING is further from the truth. We are not amazing. We did not rescue her or save her. That is not our job and it never will be. And if it was, we would have failed...miserably.

Ayla is the amazing one.
I struggle everyday with the emotions of having a child that is chronically ill. I struggle everyday with the fact that there is no cure. I struggle everyday with the fact that the treatment she receives causes more harmful complications, and the treatment for that causes more complications. I struggle with the fact that our other children have to deal with this too, in some way shape or form. I struggle with doctors and insurance companies. I struggle  with the fact that my sweet Ayla has to deal with this for the rest of her life, and it all just breaks my heart.  There are times when I do not want to deal. Times when I wish it could all just go away. I get selfish. I know that we asked to parent Ayla. I know that we willingly adopted her. We knew what all that would mean. We desperately prayed for her and begged God to protect her. There was nothing we desired more than for her to be home with us. And all of that is still true. Every bit of it.  And I would do it all over again in a heartbeat. But that being said, it does not make the emotional side any easier. It is NEVER easy to parent a child that is "sick". Never. All of us parents, whether our children are biological or adopted, chose to be parents. Our heartache is just the same.

But, because of my heartache, I have grown and changed. God has not wasted my heartache.

Ayla has taught me more about the love of my Heavenly Father than I could ever read or imagine. She has taught me that faith can move mountains. She has taught me how to see the beauty in things that are not of this world. She has taught me how to smile, love, and forgive when every ounce of me wants to be angry, bitter, and unforgiving. She has taught me what it means to be strong when life is not fair. She has taught me to never ever give up. And so much more. She has taught me far more than I will ever teach her.

My darling Ayla, you are beautiful inside and out.

"Fear not for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you... For I am the Lord your God..
~Isiah 43:1-3