Wednesday, May 22, 2013

Fudraiser- Benefit dinner

We had an amazing night, and so much fun too. A special thank you to all you came out to support us and our precious "Hope". We have been blessed once again! not my favorite thing to do, but we must, so here we are.
I know we have been doing a lot of these lately, and you may even be sick of them. It is so hard to ask for help; it is quite humbling actually.

Our next fund-raiser is coming up quickly! We are having a benefit dinner at our local church. It is on Friday, May 31st, from 5-7:30pm. Dinner will include a BBQ sandwich, beans, chips and a drink, and is donations only. This event is family friendly so please bring your kids, invite some friends and join us! We hope to have some great items up for grabs too. If you cannot make the dinner, but yet still want to help, you can donate an item, gift card or products for our giveaway. Or you can donate via the Paypal donate button right here on my blog. If you have any questions, you can email me at
Every dollar will go towards bring our Hope home! If you are not familiar with our adoption story, you can read about our sweet girl and our journey to her here.

We could not do this with out the generosity of our friends, family and even strangers. Please know that we are forever grateful for the outpouring of love that we have received.

Every person that has donated, prayed, emailed and offered to somehow help is making a difference. Not for our family, but for a beautiful little girl that we are lucky to call ours. 

Tuesday, May 14, 2013

"Why her?"

Romans 8:37-38
37 No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. 38 For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, 39 nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.
This reality hit me the other day when I was asked a very direct question.
 I am not so sure why it took me so long to understand this, but it did.
"Why her?"
It kind of took me off guard.
I really wish that I was really good at getting my thoughts together quickly so I did not fumble my words so much. I know why her, but when I tried to explain it it did not come out like I wanted it to.
Driving home I got to thinking...
Why me?
Why did God choose me? 
I cannot cook or read a map. I get lost just going around the's true.
 I cannot sing or sew or do anything crafty, and my math skills, well...I don't have any.
But really,
I am broken. I am a sinner and totally not worthy of any of His love. I have screwed up, and do screw up I have made so many mistakes.
"Why me?"
For the same reasons we chose her, He chose me...only His love is perfect.
God does not care what is in my "file" or what others have labeled me. He does not care what I can or cannot do, or where I come from. He does not care about a diagnosis or  prognosis.
 He sees me through eyes that are not tainted by this world.
He loves me. Desires me. He wants me to be a part of His family.
This is true for all of us. We all are made in His image...
We all are desired.
Love is amazing. It changes lives.
Our God is so good.


Thursday, May 9, 2013


Well, we finally have all of our paperwork off to Ch*na! This is big step in getting Hope home!! I honestly thought we would never get to this point. This adoption has been the hardest and most challenging so far, for so many reasons. But yet, I have seen God work in some pretty awesome ways already.

I'd be lying if I said I wasn't scared to death when we said, "Yes!" to our darling Hope. Dane's adoption was safe, or as safe as adoptions come. He was in Korea with great medical care and we received a fair amount of background history. He was in a foster family getting loved on and cared for. His needs were minor and correctable...

Aliyah's adoption had a little more risk, but was still incredibly "comfortable" for us. Her needs, to us, were minor. She was thriving and developmentally on target. She came from a wealthier area...all good things, right?

Our little Hope is hanging on, getting sub-optimal treatment. I gave God one hundred and one reason why we could not bring her home. Cried many, many tears. Lost hours of sleep battling this decision. Yet, He kept asking and working and doing what He does best- we could feel it in our hearts and the word "Hope" kept ringing in our ears. I clearly remember Joel asking me late one night,"Do you think she will be OK?" She being Hope. I did not even know what to say. My heart was pounding...I honestly did not know.  How in the world do you adopt a child not knowing if they would be okay? How do you adopt a child when every earthly part about you says, "Whoa, what are you doing?!"
I wish I could put it into really would make things so much easier. The peace that came with saying, "Yes!" to Hope was incredible. We knew without a doubt it was right decision.There is tons of risk. Tons of questions. Tons of anxiety and doubt. But it is, so  very right.
Sadly, I have never been in position like I am in know...clinging to ever ounce of my faith that God will see us through. If God does not continue to show up and follow thru I do not know what will happen... But, yet, I know this is right where he wants me...He wants us here. Clinging to every ounce of faith, asking Him very single minute to help us... needing Him to show up big time. This is His specialty.  And as emotionally exhausted, and worried  as I am, all is well. God is at work and it is amazing to be a part of it. It is actually an honor to have front row seats to His power. His faithfulness and His goodness.

So, today we celebrate God's awesomeness! We are so thankful to Him and all who have supported us so far. Today we are one step closer! We have been so blessed! And soon, we will be bringing our precious treasure home.























"Fear not for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you... For I am the Lord your God..
~Isiah 43:1-3