Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Trip overview

As most of you know we received our travel call on Tuesday July 6, 2010 at 2:38 pm. It was 6 months and 1 day since our referral of our sweet son. We were so ready for that call and I am so happy that that part of our journey is done - the waiting and delays were awful! We left for Korea on the 10th and returned home on the 19th.
We really enjoyed our time in Korea, we did get a little homesick though, we missed our kids really bad. Now that I have had time to reflect back on our trip, I really miss Korea! It truly was an unforgettable experience! I am so thankful to have experienced our son's birth country. I have so many things to share and some really great pictures. Not to mention we were able to meet his amazing foster mom and one of his foster sisters.
We met and picked up Dane on July 14th...I am really having a hard time putting my thoughts into words right now, the emotions are still so raw. It was such a bittersweet day. My heart sank for Dane's foster mom and birth parents/family and also for him; they all were losing so much. Dane cried and cried, I felt so bad. I was supposed to be his mommy and he was supposed to be my son, but to be honest at that moment and for the next few days, neither of us felt that. He wanted comfort but not from me - he wanted to go back. I felt completely helpless, he cried constantly for 3 days. And as his mommy I wanted more than anything to take his pain away and I couldn't. In fact I felt like I had caused it. Finally on Sunday, the 18th, he began to resemble the boy we briefly met at Holt.
I am really glad we stayed the few extra days. I think if we would have come home any sooner we would have had a really long, awful flight home (he did really well on the plane). Also, I think the extra days one on one with him before returning home to 3 other kids was really beneficial.
Dane is such a sweet little guy, he is so worth every heartache that we have felt and will feel in the future.


So precious, beautiful blessing and such a sweet boy!

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